rare calm

it's just 10am and both kids are sleeping soundly, a rarity in our household. with dale in his swing and nikki upstairs in the bedroom still snoozing, i once gain enter the world of blogging.

it's been so long and i've got so much to say and so many thoughts cluttering my wandering mind. amazingly though, now that i'm here i am at a loss of what to write. a symptom perhaps of the "been out of it for so long, it feels like the first time" malady. there's so much in me that's been wanting to write and yearning to write, but a lot of me trying to hold back.

holding back for fear of sharing too much of oneself, of sharing ideas only to have them crushed or mocked. or having others find it silly, petty, unworthy. or of putting forth feelings and having them taken for granted.

or simply for fear that perhaps time will come when i won't be in the mood, for writing. that happens too ... a lot i must say.

for now, i just thankful for this rare calm that has descended our home this Monday morning.